13 WTF Moments From “The L Word” You’re Still Not Over

Does Jenny as a person count? **Spoilers, obvs.**

It was the best of shows…

It was the worst of shows…

And six years later, we still can’t let it go.

Here are the moments guaranteed to stir anger and angst in your heart.

13. When the series got a new theme song.

When It Happened: The premiere of Season 2
Why You’re Not Over It: Because it is still the most irritating thing you’ve ever heard. Theme songs are supposed to be cheesy, but this is so desperately and atrociously campy that you’ve been scarred for life.

12. When you found out Mark was secretly video taping Jenny and Shane.

When It Happened: Season 2, Episode 5
Why You’re Not Over It: This show made almost every heterosexual man seem creepy and gross, and Mark the Roommate was a prime example. Charming, and even sweet, Mark was a stand-in for every guy friend you thought you had and made you feel kind of weird about it.

11. When Alice had a meltdown after Dana broke up with her.

When It Happened: Season 3, Episode 3
Why You’re Not Over It: Because breakups with your best friend are hard, but not THAT hard. Alice, and The L Word writers, took it way too far.

10. When Dana died from breast cancer.

When It Happened: Season 3, Episode 10
Why You’re Not Over It: BECAUSE DANA FUCKING DIED. Not only was it a heartbreaking loss, but Dana was also one of the most well-developed, least irritating characters on the show. Losing her halfway through the series made drinking an absolute necessity to get through the rest.

9. When Alice broke down and cried while “You Are My Sunshine” played in the background.

When It Happened: Season 3, Episode 10
Why You’re Not Over It: Because if watching Dana die wasn’t bad enough, your already bleeding heart was further eviscerated seconds later when you had to watch her best friend and former lover literally fall apart to the tune of a beloved children’s lullaby. Ergo, trauma.

8. When Max became the worst stereotype ever.

When It Happened: Over the course of Seasons 3 through 5, taking an absolute nosedive in Season 6
Why You’re Not Over It: Because his whole storyline constantly made you think, What the actual fuck? Max was an all right guy, but the series made his gender identity the only point of his story. He had every stereotype about trans identity shoved into his character, dehumanizing and often demonizing him as a trans man. It was painful to watch.

7. When Shane left Carmen at the altar.

When It Happened: The Season 3 finale
Why You’re Not Over It: 1) Because they were a beautiful couple, 2) because Carmen was a beautiful person, and 3) because Carmen gave you hope that Shane wasn’t doomed to remain an angsty overgrown teenager for the rest of her life. Alas.

6. When Jenny’s book Lez Girls became a movie.

When It Happened: Season 4, Episode 7 through the series finale
Why You’re Not Over It: The series became a show about a movie that was about the characters in the show. Among the many plot twists and turns that made your brain hurt, this was one of the most ridiculous.

5. When Jenny spoke.

When It Happened: Every episode.
Why You’re Not Over It: Because Jenny didn’t have to be so awful, but the writers couldn’t get her right. Everything from her sexuality to her trauma to her attempt at living life was caricatured into a flaming hot mess. You kind of felt bad for her, but mostly you hated her guts.

4. When Eva “Papi” Torres mysteriously disappeared from the series.

When It Happened: After Season 4
Why You’re Not Over It: First of all, because Papi was fine. Second, because she was the second Latina character to disappear from the show unceremoniously (after Carmen), and her exit was never again referenced or explained until a brief reappearance in Season 6.

3. When Shane and Jenny started “dating.”

 

When It Happened: Season 6, Episode 2
Why You’re Not Over It: Because this is a coupling only the sickest mind could conjure. Jenny and Shane had an enviable friendship, but the idea of them as lovers made your skin crawl.

2. When Max’s boyfriend left him pregnant and alone.

When It Happened: Season 6, Episode 4
Why You’re Not Over It: BECAUSE COME ON. His whole narrative is shat upon and then he ends up with this? Not cool, L Word writers. Not cool.

1. When the entire sixth season. Just.

When It Happened: When you thought things couldn’t get worse
Why You’re Not Over It: Because nothing — actually nothing — made any sense.
A simple show about queer lady life became a weird murder mystery in which all the characters existed in an alternative universe where Jenny and Shane could be a thing and that chick from Saved By the Bell was briefly relevant.

Read more: http://www.buzzfeed.com/erikaturner/most-wtf-moments-from-the-l-word-youre-still-not-over

President, VP observe International Day Against Homophobia and Transphobia

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Is it a White House first? An evolved President Obama has issued a formal statement commemorating Saturday’s International Day Against Homophobia and Transphobia, or #IDAHOT.

Tomorrow, as we commemorate the 10th annual International Day Against Homophobia and Transphobia, we recommit ourselves to the fundamental belief that all people should be treated equally, that they should have the opportunity to reach their fullest potential, and that no one should face violence or discrimination — no matter who they are or whom they love.

At a time when, tragically, we are seeing increased efforts to criminalize or oppress LGBT persons, we call on partners everywhere to join us in defending the equal rights of our LGBT brothers and sisters, and in ensuring they are treated with the dignity and respect they deserve.

Vice President Joe Biden tweeted in observance himself, as did Valerie Jarrett.

http://twitter.com/#!/vj44/status/467422896739352576

In a true show of international effort, U.N. Secretary General Ban Ki-moon tweeted as well.

http://twitter.com/#!/UN/status/467077192057643009

President Obama isn’t the only one to have evolved. The organizers of IDAHOT (formerly IDAHO) are considering updating their branding. “We are currently in our communications promoting May 17th as the ‘Global Day to Celebrate sexual and gender diversities,’ which we believe is the most inclusive formulation possible.”

Read more: http://twitchy.com/2014/05/16/president-vp-observe-international-day-against-homophobia-and-transphobia/

Egyptian Doctors Think This Torturous Exam Can Detect “Chronic Homosexuals”

Anal exams are performed by police in many countries that criminalize homosexuality — and they base their work on 150-year-old European science. BuzzFeed News’ J. Lester Feder and Maged Atef report from Cairo.

Dr. Maged Louis in his office in Cairo. Maged Atef/BuzzFeed

CAIRO — When asked to explain what Cairo’s medical inspectors look for when they examine someone who’s been arrested for homosexuality, Dr. Maged Louis picked up a pen and started sketching an oval with sharp points on both ends.

“The shape of the hole will change,” he said. The anus “won’t be normal any more and will look like the female vagina.”

More than 150 people have been arrested on charges of homosexuality since President Abdel Fattah el-Sisi took power just under two years ago, the largest roundup of alleged LGBT people in more than a decade in Egypt. Anal exams are a routine part of the investigation in such cases, and Louis has a role in overseeing all of them. He is the deputy director of the Justice Ministry’s Forensic Medical Authority, as well as the chief of forensic medicine for the Cairo police district.

“First we make them take the prostrate position — the position that Muslims take when they pray,” he said in an interview with BuzzFeed News. The tests are intended not just to determine whether someone has ever had anal sex, but also to detect “chronic homosexuals,” because the letter of Egyptian law only criminalizes men who engage in “habitual debauchery.” Louis said that he believed that in addition to their elongation, the anuses of “chronic homosexuals” also don’t clench when touched or don’t contract as tightly. They are smooth and lack the “corrugations” — wrinkles — found on “normal” anuses, he said. And though he denied that examiners penetrate subjects under examination, he also said they can detect a “chronic homosexual” if his anus can accept larger objects.

“A normal man’s anus can’t take more than one joint of the small finger,” he said.

International human rights and medical experts dismissed Louis’s checklist as having “no medical basis” and being “categorically not true.” Most of those interviewed by BuzzFeed News couldn’t contain their shock before all of the criteria were listed.

“I think you heard my laugh — I think that says it all,” said Dr. Joel Palefsky, a professor at the University of California San Francisco specializing in anal cancer who is president of the International Anal Neoplasia Society. “We run a clinic where we do anal examinations of thousands of patients … Never in my 20 years of doing this have I seen an anus that looks like a vagina.”

Human Rights Watch and other advocacy organizations have long denounced such anal exams — which are routine in several of the world’s roughly 80 countries that criminalize sodomy — as a form of torture that violates international law. Medical leaders in some of the countries where these exams are used have called for their abolition, such as in Lebanon.

But Louis was incredulous that anyone could doubt his inspectors’ work.

“All of what I said is science and written in books,” he said. “Doctors all over the world know that.”

The idea that inspectors are intentionally fabricating evidence because of their own homophobia isn’t what makes these exams so disturbing — though that does sometimes happen, according to defendants’ accounts. It’s that beliefs about homosexuality are leading doctors — some of whom have done extensive (and horrific) research into perfecting diagnostic techniques — to believe that what they are doing is science.

Men who were arrested by police looking for gays at a Cairo public bathhouse hide their faces after being acquitted. Amir Nabil / Via AP

One of the modern pioneers in anal examinations in Egypt was Dr. Aymen Fouda, Louis’ predecessor as deputy director of the Forensic Medical Authority, who went on to become chief medical inspector from 2005 through 2007.

During a 2003 interview with Scott Long, then-director of Human Rights Watch’s LGBT program, Fouda said the exams were based on techniques developed in Europe.

“In this kind of investigation there are six criteria which were established by the celebrated Frenchman [Auguste Ambroise] Tardieu,” Fouda said, referring to the 19th-century forensic doctor who published a book in 1857 called The Forensic Study of Assaults against Decency. In the book, Tardieu spelled out six “characteristic signs” of “habitual pederasty,” which included those described by Dr. Louis as well as sores and fissures. But, he wrote, “[t]he unique sign and the only unequivocal mark of pederasty” is an “infundibuliform” — or funnel-shaped — anus.

Fouda told Long that forensic experts were working on developing “new, advanced methods” to detect homosexuality “involving the use of electricity.” Fouda had co-authored a 1998 study published in a journal published by the Egyptian Society of Forensic Medical Sciences that experimented with inserting hypodermic needles into the muscle of the anus in “unanesthetized humans” which claimed to demonstrate that gay men’s anuses conduct electricity at a different rate. Other researchers continued experimenting with related methods, including a doctoral student who defended a dissertation at Ain Shams University — one of Egypt’s most prestigious — in 2003 entitled “Medico-legal Assessment of the Anal Sphincter Functions in Sodomists.”

Tardieu’s theories were suspect in Europe even when they were first published, said Khaled Fahmy, a historian of Egyptian forensic medicine at the American University of Cairo who has studied its translation into Arabic.

“Even back then this is a highly ideological book,” he told BuzzFeed News, part of a “morals campaign” that was a response to events in Paris at the time. And he thought it “would be shocking” to the Egyptian public if it were widely known that courts were continuing to treat examinations as serious evidence that were based on science that was 150 years old.

But, he speculated, they endure in part because they reinforce certain basic notions about homosexuality that circulate in Egypt: that it is like a disease, usually passed on to children through sexual abuse.

“There is a belief that this abuse during childhood will leave a physical mark, and it leaves a mark on the anus,” he said. “We now have a homosexual body — not only a homosexual character which is a defective character, but it has physical traces that a forensic doctor can discern.”

And though these anal exams now seem laughable in Europe and the United States, the belief that a detectable physical basis for sexual orientation persists into the 21st century. In 2010, the Czech Republic announced that it would stop subjecting gay refugees to a practice called “phallometry” or “penile plethysmography” — which involves attaching a pressure-sensing device to the refugee’s penis while he is shown heterosexual pornography — after it was denounced as “degrading treatment” by the United Nations Refugee Agency.

The same belief for a measurable sign of homosexuality also lingers in the hunt for a “gay gene,” suggests Graeme Reid, the current head of Human Rights Watch’s LGBT program. Though the argument that homosexuality is determined by biology has been very effective for the LGBT rights movement in the U.S. and Europe, Reid said, efforts to isolate a “gay gene” are also based on a simplistic, “flawed cultural assumption” about the biological basis of sexuality.

“The idea that there is kind of one causation for sexuality seems absurd given what we know about the complexity of human sexuality,” Reid said.

Special police officers rush some of 52 alleged homosexuals on trial into court in Cairo, Egypt, Wednesday, Nov. 14, 2001. AP Photo/Philip Mark

Some defendants who have undergone anal exams in Egypt describe open cruelty on the part of the doctors. One of the defendants in Egypt’s largest homosexuality trials in recent history — the 2001 trial of 52 men that became known as the “Queen Boat” case — told Long of Human Rights Watch that the anal exam was one of the “two worst times in my life”; the other was when the judge sentenced him to two years in jail. “The doctors treated us like pigs,” said another quoted in Long’s report on the trial, and several noted that their degradation was compounded by the fact that they were forced to assume a sexually subservient position in front of women. Anal exams are far from the only intrusive practice that appears to be becoming more common in Sisi’s Egypt — “virginity tests” for women who are arrested are also making a comeback since the military reasserted control, and Sisi has personally defended the practice.

Fahmy said that some of the doctors “may” see themselves as administering a form of punishment through these exams. But he thinks in most cases, the doctors “would be thinking this is not torture; they’re not really humiliating them.” A man who has allowed another to penetrate him — which carries much greater stigma than doing the penetrating — has already lost his honor in the eyes of many Egyptians, and so these exams seem like nothing by comparison.

Doctors likely believe that “these are people who have forfeited their honor to begin with,” Fahmy said. “By being who they are, by being homosexual, they effectively have forfeited the constitutional protection that they are entitled to.”

Because these “examinations have no forensic or evidentiary value for consensual homosexual acts,” Human Rights Watch maintains that doctors who perform them violate the United Nations Principles of Medical Ethics, which says physicians should not “apply their knowledge and skills in order to assist in the interrogation of prisoners and detainees in a manner that may adversely affect [their] physical or mental health or condition.”

And there is no doubt that these exams are absurd, say doctors practicing in the United States. Dr. Ross Cranston, director of the Anal Dysplasia Clinic and Research Program in the University of Pittsburgh Division of Infectious Diseases, said not all gay men have anal sex regularly or at all, and that no credible study has ever shown any clear difference in things like muscle strength.

“I could not tell a gay anal canal from a straight anal canal,” Cranston said. “There’s no typical sign of the gay anal canal.”

Human Rights Watch’s Reid said the organization will begin a project this spring to document how common anal exams are and the role of medical practitioners in them. The organization has documented them in at least six countries in the course of investigating specific cases of abuse, but no comprehensive review has ever been done to establish how widespread they are. And it’s not clear, Reid said, whether “there’s a collaboration between medical examiners and police to deliberately subject people to humiliation and torture, or medical examiners genuinely believe that this has some kind of a medical basis.”

Anecdotal reports suggest there is a good deal of skepticism about anal exams even in countries with notoriously homophobic regimes. In Uganda, for example, anal exams are “the first line of investigation” when someone is arrested for homosexuality, said Adrian Jjuuko, director of the Human Rights Awareness and Promotion Forum, which often provides legal support in cases involving LGBT rights. A Ugandan man who was arrested for homosexuality along with two others in November told BuzzFeed News that police stuck their hands down their pants when they were first detained to “see if we had Pampers,” believing “gays put diapers on themselves” because anal sex causes incontinence.

But despite the police’s fixation on the anus, Jjuuko said, “the state does not use [anal exams] as evidence.”

The amount of research Egypt’s forensic experts appear to have invested in anal exams would seem to set them apart. It’s not clear whether the doctors who perform the exams have the same rigor — Long collected reports from defendants in the 2001 case who said investigators reached their conclusions based on the fact that they appeared feminine or had no hair on their chests.

Belief in the scientific rigor of anal exams is widely shared in Egypt. Medical examiners aren’t just a tool the police use to simply rubber-stamp charges — in fact, they’ve contradicted the charges in Egypt’s two most high-profile homosexuality trials under Sisi’s regime.

During the trial last month of 26 men accused of participating in a “gay sex party” at a working-class bathhouse, it wasn’t prosecutors who introduced the results of the anal exams, but the defense. Prosecutors didn’t introduce them because only three of the men were found to have been sexually “used,” contradicting the testimony of the arresting officer, who claimed to have personally witnessed multiple couples engaged in anal sex.

All 26 men were acquitted in January, the first time defendants had been acquitted on charges of homosexuality in a high-profile case since Sisi began controlling Egypt. But an exam pronouncing a defendant’s anus “un-used” is not a guarantee of acquittal. Examiners routinely add a disclaimer to reports when they find no evidence of penetration that says anal sex can be undetectable if it happens with “full consent, taking the right position, and the use of lubricants.” And in another recent case — in which eight men were prosecuted based on a YouTube video prosecutors alleged was of a same-sex wedding — all were sentenced to a year in jail despite the fact that medical examiners said there was no evidence of penetration.

Even some Egyptian lawyers who support LGBT rights don’t question the legitimacy of the exams.

In some cases, attorneys even demand police send their clients for forensic exams in the hopes that it will refute the charges. Mohamed Abo Zakry, a defense attorney with an organization representing seven of the defendants in the bathhouse case, reacted as if it were a stupid question when asked about challenging the legitimacy of the tests during an interview with BuzzFeed News just before the acquittal in January.

“We cannot say the exams are not accurate,” Zakry said. “They are accurate. Any [doctor] who has experience can see clearly if this guy is gay or not.”

Read more: http://www.buzzfeed.com/lesterfeder/egyptian-doctors-think-this-torturous-exam-can-detect-chroni

Meet The Trans Sex Worker Who Transformed A Gang-Controlled Prison

Karla Avelar survived a serial killer, gang attacks, and four years in a Salvadoran prison to become a trans activist on the global stage. J. Lester Feder and Nicola Chávez Courtright report from El Salvador.
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Karla Avelar Courtesy of Danielle Mackey and AMATE El Salvador

SENSUNTEPEQUE, El Salvador — Karla Avelar had a backache when she reached the Sensuntepeque Penal Center, a cluster of cinderblock buildings perched on the side of a lush green valley near El Salvador’s border with Honduras. So, after lunch, she took off her shirt and lay facedown on the cement floor of a room that doubles as activity space and cafeteria. Five women in bright makeup gave her a head-to-toe massage. They used hand cream as a massage oil and placed a small candle over the knot in her back to draw out the pain.

Avelar was so at ease inside the prison that it is hard to imagine that she was regularly raped and tortured while she was incarcerated there between 1996 and 2000. Avelar, now 37 years old, was one of the many trans sex workers from San Salvador, El Salvador’s capital, who has done time there over the past several decades. The ones who passed through there around the same time as Avelar report being abused by guards and pressed into a kind of slavery by the gangs who controlled the prison.Those days are over, thanks in part to a legal complaint Avelar herself filed after her release. The women who rubbed her back on her recent visit, just before Christmas, are among the roughly 50 inmates who live in Sector 2, a special unit that houses trans women along with a handful of gay men. They still interact with the other prisoners in some common areas — several of them have boyfriends in the men’s unit, and the prison supplies them with condoms — but they live and sleep in a part of the prison that is walled off from the men’s unit for their safety.“Today there is no rape,” said one 25-year-old inmate who gave her name as Kendra. Kendra said she was subject to some verbal abuse when she first arrived in 2010 — a guard forced her to kneel for two hours while hurling homophobic insults at her — but Avelar came to see her and helped put a stop to it. The sealing of Sector 2 in that same year coincided with a decision by the prison administration to move the gang members out of the prison, which also went a long way to improving the trans and gay inmates’ situation.Many of them have stories much like Avelar’s: Thrown out of home at an early age, they got by as sex workers and survived rape or run-ins with gangs before landing in Sensuntepeque. They look to Avelar as a cross between a godmother and an advocate, able to win concessions from the prison administration that they could never get on their own. During the December visit, Avelar delivered a petition from the residents of Sector 2 to the warden asking that they be allowed to join the women’s unit for a Christmas pageant. He agreed to it in writing on the spot.“They’re a little afraid of me because I’ve gotten them to remove certain guards,” she told BuzzFeed News during the three-hour drive to the prison from San Salvador. “So with me, [the guards] are all like, ‘Hello, Niña Karlita,'” greeting her with an affectionate nickname.In a country where HIV and violence claim so many trans women’s lives that there are few trans women in San Salvador over the age of 35, it’s remarkable that Avelar is even still alive. She was raped and threatened with murder for the first time when she was 10, has survived at least three murder attempts as an adult, and has lived with HIV that went untreated for more than 13 years. Since 2008, she has run the trans rights organization she founded in San Salvador, known by the acronym COMCAVIS Trans. She regularly travels around the world to make the case for trans rights before international human rights bodies.Avelar is part of a generation of trans activists in El Salvador, most of whom never finished primary school. They have won some substantial victories — including a directive issued by the government in 2010 prohibiting discrimination on the grounds of sexual orientation and gender identity in government jobs — even though human rights advocates consider El Salvador one of the most dangerous countries in the Americas for LGBT people. Based on media reports, COMCAVIS has documented at least twelve women and two gay men who were killed in 2014, a figure they believe understates the actual number of murders.“In terms of Karla’s transformation, I can say, ‘Wow, when I’m all grown up I want to be just like her’ — only that she’s younger than me,” said William Hernández, who founded El Salvador’s first LGBT rights organization in 1994, Entre Amigos (which translates to “Among Friends”).“We met her on the streets,” Hernandez said. “We knew the comings and goings of all of the things she lived through.” Now, he marvels at seeing her in meetings seated next to ambassadors and cabinet ministers. “And she’s not just sitting there — she’s actually expressing herself, making decisions and laying the cards on the table.”

A 2014 video produced by the United Nations Free and Equal Campaign promoting LGBT rights that includes Karla Avelar. youtube.com / Via comcavis.org.sv

Avelar was born in Chalatenango, a rural district just to the northwest of the one that houses the Sensuntepeque prison. She left home when she was 10 years old, after the second time her cousin raped her in their family house. Another cousin used to shoot at her from time to time — and finally told her to get out.

“My cousin warned me that if I didn’t leave home he’d kill me because in his family there were only machos,” Avelar said. She was dressing as a boy at the time, she said, but “I wasn’t fooling anybody. … In my town, in my neighborhood, everybody stopped calling me ‘Carlos’; they called me ‘Karla’ instead. Or ‘the faggot.'”She left without enough money for bus fare, so she started walking toward San Salvador. She walked for a day and a half before reaching Apopa, a town just outside the capital, arriving at around 11 p.m. A man took pity on her and paid for her to take a bus the rest of the way. She spent the next six months sleeping in the San Salvador bus station or on the street, feeding herself from the trash.She eventually saved up a little money from begging and bought a case of Coca-Cola, and began a business selling soda in one of the city’s largest markets. There she met a woman named María a who took her in but made her work a grueling schedule of domestic chores.The woman’s son also raped her, Avelar said, “but I stayed there because I didn’t know what else to do.”One of her most dangerous chores was buying tortillas. María’s house was in a neighborhood controlled by the 18th Street gang, but the tortillería was in the territory of the rival Mara Salvatrucha (MS). On one of these tortilla runs, a group of MS members grabbed her and took her to a place where she said about 15 men raped her. There was more waiting for their turn, but she found the courage to make a break for it.She returned to homelessness shortly after. That’s where she first met another trans woman, named Diana, who invited Avelar to come along with her when she worked the streets. Avelar discovered that sex work finally gave her a way to earn money on her own and a little bit of control over her life.“I was young [and] I made money,” she said.Avelar stayed friends with Diana until about eight years ago, when Diana was killed by her partner, a police officer. They had no real name for what they were at the time they first met. Most of the trans women in San Salvador were lumped into the category of “homosexuals” or they called themselves “locas,” which literally means “crazy women” but often is used to mean something similar to “fag.”“At that time, we didn’t even know that we were ‘trans’ or that we were the subjects of rights or anything,” Avelar said.
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Salvadoran trans activist Paty Hernández (who is dressed as a man at the center of this photo) during a late-night poster campaign promoting El Salvador’s first LGBT rights organization, circa 1994. Courtesy of Paty Hernández and AMATE El Salvador

Many of the trans sex workers who were already working in San Salvador when Avelar entered the business in 1990 remember those years as the tail end of a golden age. A civil war raged in El Salvador from the early 1980s until 1992, but the capital itself was comparatively peaceful and home to a thriving red-light district where gay men were relatively open and trans sex workers enjoyed steady business from the soldiers and police. There were a few strips where they worked, but the center of activity was a four-block area known as the Praviana. The women who spent time there in the ’80s and early ’90s estimate that in an area of about four blocks, anywhere from 70 to 90 trans women lived, most of them sex workers in the neighborhood’s hotels.

Avelar was too intimidated by the other trans women to work in the heart of the Praviana. The veterans didn’t exactly welcome her with open arms — they bullied her ruthlessly, calling her “la machorra” (“the dyke”) because she wore short hair.The “trans women who had been there a long time … would walk up and steal my money — sometimes they would even leave me naked,” Avelar said. Once, a woman waved a machete in her face and told her she “had a pretty face for slicing up into little pieces.”Avelar eventually learned to fight back, and she began dishing out the same kind of abuse to the women who had treated her so badly. But this was as the Praviana began to decline in the 1990s. Many of the women left for the United States, following a well-worn path that many Salvadorans took in the dangerous and unstable period as organized gangs tightened control of the country following the civil war.And then there was the “Matalocas” — the “Trannykiller.” A serial killer started attacking trans women on the street in a series of drive-by shootings. He was said to have a wooden leg.A man matching his description nearly killed Avelar in 1992. One night, Avelar said, she got into the car of a john who drove her to a secluded part of town after agreeing on a price. Her heart stopped when she went to go down on him and discovered he had an artificial leg.“I touched his peg leg and I got scared,” Avelar remembered. “I said to myself, ‘He’s already killed me.'”She tried to act calm and finished the blow job, but he had noticed her panic. He pulled her off his penis, smacked her across the head with the butt of a pistol, and then made her get out of the car. That’s when “penetration occurred” she said, and then he forced her back into the car and promised to kill her if she tried to escape.When they reached the outskirts of the city, she grabbed the wheel and crashed the car into the side of an overpass. She grabbed his gun as she leaped out of the car and threw it out of reach, but he had another one. He shot her nine times.She survived, though she went into a lengthy coma. When she woke up, she got another piece of bad news. The doctors told her she was HIV-positive, though she said she was too scared to confront the diagnosis and did not seek treatment.The shooting brought some reconciliation with her family. Officials could not find her next of kin while she was unconscious, so a television station broadcast her picture and asked anyone who knew her to contact the authorities. Her little brother saw the broadcast, and her grandmother broke down when she saw the picture of Avelar hooked up to medical equipment.“When I came out of the comatose state, my grandmother was next to me,” Avelar said, her voice shaking. “That was the first time my grandmother saw me as a trans person. The truth is that the first thing I did was cry because I’d grown up with her, and I left without saying anything. The first thing she said to me was, I was her boy, and it didn’t matter what people said.”
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A photo from El Salvador’s first pride parade, held in 1997 Alice Mongkongllite / Via BuzzFeed

The shooting helped draw Avelar into activism. Hernandez of Entre Amigos explained that the newly founded LGBT rights group had been looking for a case they could use to draw attention to the high rates of violence targeting LGBT people, but no one would go public. Avelar was the first of the Matalocas’ victims to survive who could identify him, and she wasn’t afraid of the attention. They held a press conference and released his name to the public. He was a high-ranking military official whom they had been able to identify based on his gun registration — the man even went to reclaim the firearm from police after the shooting.

Avelar and Entre Amigos immediately began receiving death threats, and they never denounced the perpetrator of a hate crime so publicly ever again. The man was never punished for the shooting.Avelar returned to sex work after she recovered, but she became part of the first effort to organize a trans-rights group. It was called El Nombre de la Rosa, and split off from the gay-male-led group Entre Amigos in 1997, just after El Salvador’s first pride march.It began almost like a union, said Paty Hernández, El Nombre de la Rosa’s lead organizer.“The prostitutes would pay — we’d give a portion, a donation of what we made in the night,” she explained.At first, government officials even refused to register the group as a nonprofit, saying its aims were “contrary to morality.” This was demoralizing at a time when trans women were vanishing rapidly from San Salvador. Between when El Nombre de la Rosa first organized in the late ’90s until Hernández launched an attempt to start a trans organization in 2003, the number of adult trans women known to activist groups in El Salvador dropped from around 200 to 40.“We all felt disheartened,” Hernández said during an interview in Washington, D.C., where she decided to seek asylum in 2014. “Some of us came here [to the U.S.], fleeing. Others were dying of AIDS.” There was also a new wave of violence following the 1997 pride march.“We came out of the caves,” she said. “Whenever there are marches there are more murders.”
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Pride marchers in 2012 at the Savior of the World Monument, El Salvador’s national symbol. Nicola Chávez Courtright

Avelar missed the march. She was in prison.

One night in 1996, she was working a strip near a statue of Jesus Christ standing on top of a globe, El Salvador’s national symbol. Three gay men started taunting her and another trans woman she was with for wearing women’s clothes, Avelar said. The men grew more aggressive and removed their belts as if they were going to whip them. Feeling in danger, Avelar said, she stabbed one of them after her friend fled. She was arrested and sent to Sensuntepeque.The prison’s Sector 2 had been designated for gay and trans prisoners since at least the 1980s, though none of the activists or the inmates who did time there know exactly why the prison decided to give them their own space. But it didn’t offer any protection during the four years Avelar lived there. Sector 2 had its own sleeping area, but the detainees were not separate from the rest of the male prisoners, who could move freely throughout the prison. And many of the men were gang members, who came to and went from Sector 2 as they pleased.“I was forced to act as a servant for the gang members,” Avelar said. “I would wash their clothes, shine their shoes … because if you didn’t do it, they would kill you. I also was forced to submit to their sexual demands.”Avelar also remembers being tortured by the guards. On the December visit to the prison, Avelar pointed at a large almond tree gracefully shadowing the parking area behind the prison and recounted how a guard once hung her from it by her wrists for 24 hours as punishment for a small infraction. This was routine, she said.The one inmate who overlapped with Avelar and is still incarcerated at Sensuntepeque also remembers this period of constant danger.“Every day we were harassed and threatened,” said the 53-year-old woman who gave her name as Celeste during an interview in the prison’s activity room and cafeteria. She has a large scar across her nose and cheek from the altercation that first landed her in jail in 1989. “The men grabbed us by the hair and raped us … At that time, the authorities would not intervene. They would stay outside, watching.”Avelar said it was during that time that she became determined to turn her life around when she got out. “That’s where … an internal change, a personal change began,” Avelar said. She confronted “the need to figure out what I would do when I got out of there if I got out of there.”It took her seven more years and two more murder attempts before she managed to change her life. She returned to sex work after she was released in 2000, and in 2006 gang members shot her five times for refusing to pay “rent” for the working territory under their control. She survived, only for the same gang to attempt to finish the job in 2007 by stabbing her twice in the back while she was talking to a customer.Leaving her old life first meant getting treatment for HIV. She had lost a terrifying amount of weight by the time she was released in 2000, and her health was “horribly bad,” Avelar said. Though her last stay in the hospital had been traumatic — they had refused to feed her until she got her own dishes, saying that she “could infect everyone” — she went to a hospital for a physical exam. She started antiretroviral therapy in 2006.She also set up her own organization in 2008. Though the activists that formed El Nombre de la Rosa had started a new group by this time, called ASPIDH-Arcoiris, Avelar said that she had alienated them before she went to prison for being too pushy and not respecting consensus. At first, Avelar’s COMCAVIS was funded the same way the other trans groups had been, with contributions from sex workers, until it got its first HIV intervention grant in 2011 through a USAID-backed program, funding it still receives. She had to teach herself how to do the paperwork to incorporate the organization and how to do accounting; she said the first time she tried to set up an Excel spreadsheet she broke down in tears.COMCAVIS filed its first formal complaint against the prison with El Salvador’s Human Rights Ombudsman in 2010. They followed it with two more complaints in 2011 and 2014. First, they won the incarcerated women the right to wear women’s clothes. Then a partition went up between Sector 2 and the men’s unit. Finally, the prison was forced to give the prisoners access to condoms.Today COMCAVIS runs workshops for the residents of Sector 2 in partnership with two other LGBT organizations. Avelar visits a few times a year to check up on the residents. She now seems totally at ease chatting and laughing with the inmates, but she described breaking down in tears on her first visit in 2010, remembering walking through a gauntlet of punches from the other inmates when she was first locked up.It’s a sign of how much safer the prison is because of these reforms that the trans and gay inmates’ biggest complaints today are about the isolation Avelar helped win for them. They’re not allowed to participate in the workshops that the prison runs for the men, for example, like hammock weaving or furniture building, so they come out of prison without any job skills.“Nowadays, because there are no more gang members [in the prison], they’re asking not to be isolated,” Avelar said. “But the truth is that the correctional facility is obligated to guarantee the safety of all as much as possible.”Her work remains dangerous and exhausting. Another trans activist named Tania Vásquez was killed in 2013, and no one was ever punished. Avelar keeps a frenetic schedule, which has made it hard to stick to an HIV regimen that required taking pills six times a day; the backache the inmates were trying to massage away in December turned out to be the beginnings of an infection of her nervous system that put her in the hospital for a month before doctors switched her to a once-a-day regimen.Avelar said she sometimes considers leaving the country. Even longtime activists like the founder of El Nombre de la Rosa and other trans rights organization called ASPIDH-Arcoiris, Paty Hernández, left in 2014 after 20 years of activism. Avelar seriously considered not returning during a recent trip to Sweden.“What is happening to my sisters pains me,” she said. “More than courage, what [keeps me in El Salvador] is pride. … It is the strength of the claim that El Salvador has a debt to us.”

Nicola Chávez Courtright co-directs the LGBTQI historical archive for the organization AMATE El Salvador, which runs workshops for residents of Sector 2 in collaboration with COMCAVIS and Entre Amigos.

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10 solutions to Train For “The Amazing challenge” (if you should be previously upon it)

As informed through Jonathan Knight from new young children readily available together with his boyfriend Harley Rodriguez. The prepared will require element in in to the future system.

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you might possibly recognize Jonathan Knight from their time plastered interior destination wall surface surface area… a whole lot more specifically you know him as an element of a young child music business experiencing existing children locally. Knight will arrive in the future number of The Amazing Race on CBS, contending alongside their boyfriend Harley Rodriguez. When you have one method to test your commitment, it is in reality probably going globally collectively.

The prepared determined by BuzzFeed Headquarters to share with you some insider globetrotting instruction instructions they discovered while rushing across the world, you know, if you formerly attain participate.

are certain to get onboard with jet dishes… there isn’t numerous an alternative kind of.

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airplanes, trains, and automobiles: there’s no location for many eaters on challenge!

work out quick tips to read things twice, everytime. (go-back and appearance this out term all over again.)

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Reading a thought incorrectly is the difference between 1st… and last.

bring your bags extra significant and select an instant run!

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The programs aren’t any laugh, you’ll have to establish your stamina.

Embrace the fanny pack. Get fanny pack. Love the fanny pack.

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design definitely very first problem the following.

just take some special event programs!

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you might can’t say for sure exactly what challenges the Roadblocks will hold, it’s miles better protect sync continuously.

Eat some expired dishes from right back associated with the refrigerator… and never puke.

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May unique stomach be metal-clad and your tastebuds indifferent.

learn how to drive stick, its number of important.

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they just never ever develop cars like they utilized to….

become the master of instance packaging.

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Knight: you-know-who you are.

figure out how to find out taxi motorists and this can be actually in danger of allow you to exactly what your place is.

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whenever they walk-down — all is lost.

remember the small things (such as for instance your passport), they could be the key.

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Jonathan and Harley: you have these days obtained the fight in your mind.

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Cheer all of them on today during size premiere of The Amazing Race (9:30 p.m. ET), on CBS.

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Samira Wiley Won An LGBT Exposure Award Along With Girl Address Is Actually Beautiful

Check out and swoon.

Out homosexual Orange may be the modern Ebony celebrity Samira Wiley received the visibility Award at 2015 peoples liberties endeavor vermont Gala last week-end.

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And she supplied a stylish message.

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Wiley talked-about youths accumulating in intolerant men and women, her individual great residence understanding, and simply exactly what because of this toward woman to-be proudly and visibly homosexual.

“once we sleep and I also in addition appearance closely at these reports afin de with regards to gents and ladies, my initial idea are how small we should consider ourselves, just to you need to limitation,” she advertised.


think of acceptance? Think about various other dressing up event, and love, and embracing difference, rather than tolerating it? What might take place whenever we boost the club better?

“The HRC’s work reveals usa day-after-day that sex and sexual intercourse identification…”

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“…should be simply footnote within every day life, as opposed to the idea of our existence.”

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“in the best year or two since individual public picture keeps growing particularly, i will be overrun to witness the efficient methods i’m capable of making an optimistic modification by living my life effortlessly, alongside love.”


I think that getting apparent unquestionably is an enormous section of the challenge. Some times it isn’t about going hills, but alternatively about waking up on a daily basis and deciding to stay my truth since authentically as soon as we are determined. Its about keeping my gf’s hand when we walk-down the trail. It is actually about performing a little bit of thing only publishing a graphic on Instagram that could instruct a queer teenage lady in only a little city that she will have a classy life besides. It is possible, that all things are doable. It’s about coming pleasure and love unlike pity, and hate.

A Valentine’s Day easy of Wiley’s enthusiast Lauren Morelli. The prepared found about quantity of Orange could be the unique Ebony, whereby Morelli is a writer. instagram.com

We love you, Samira.

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start to see the total target right here.

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modification: The visibility Award ended up being desired to Wiley because of the Human liberties doing. An earlier on on on kind of this post defined as the business enterprise the Human liberties Commission.

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This Shadowy Group Is Targeting Russian Teachers Who Support LGBT Rights

The group says it will continue to “raid” schools “where the rights of children and families may be violated.”

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In this May 1, 2013, file photo, gay rights activists carry rainbow flags as they march during a May Day rally in St. Petersburg, Russia.

A shadowy group identifying itself as the “public ombudsman for children’s rights” turned up at a school in St. Petersburg last week in what it called a “raid” to demand the dismissal of a teacher supportive of LGBT rights, local media outlets reported.

The group said it showed the school director photos from Maksim Ivantsov’s wall on the Russian social network VKontakte as proof of the teacher’s “propaganda” of “LGBT values.”

Ivantsov has spoken out publicly against anti-LGBT discrimination. In December he became a target of Timur Isaev, an anti-LGBT campaigner who claimed to have gotten dozens of LGBT teachers fired before his arrest late last year on unrelated charges.

Ivantsov suggested the group behind the raid are supporters of Isaev. “I don’t know who they are, I’ll figure it out,” he told the Metro news site. “At work now everything is calm. To incoming requests the school leadership answers that they have no complaints about me, everything is in order and I will continue to work.”

The office of the actual children’s rights ombudsman of St. Petersburg, Svetlana Agapitova, denied any connection to the group and said the school had “every right to call the police if this unknown organization is conducting illegal acts.”

“In the subway station you can buy a certificate that says you’re a tsar and call yourself whatever you like,” a spokesman for Agapitova said. “The question is what confirms your authority.”

On January 15, the week before Agapitova was re-elected, a gathering of “parents’ and patriotic organizations” led by the Russian Orthodox group People’s Cathedral denounced her candidacy and proposed creating the new position of “public ombudsman for children’s rights,” to be filled by their preferred candidate, Marina Zhuravlyova. A report that aired on the pro-Kremlin NTV television channel shows several representatives of the “public ombudsman,” including the leader of People’s Cathedral, looking at a potential office space.

The self-declared “public ombudsman” group said that Agapitova “does not deal with the protection of morals, as well as the protection of the traditional family,” according to Metro. It vowed to conduct “regular” raids on locations where “the rights of children and families may be violated” and said it would open a website where parents could leave tips on teachers to investigate.

A recent Human Rights Watch report documented seven cases of Russian educators whose jobs were threatened due to their support for LGBT rights.

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